Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Unpleasant #healthprobs

I’m in a sour mood today. I wasn’t going to share any of this, but then I thought, why not? It’s my blog and I can do what I want. Plus, I like talking to those who comment and I feel like writing this out because I need to vent. And I want to get all this negativity out of my system so I can have a nice evening.

1. Husband

Remember a few weeks ago when I joked about my husband being sick HERE. Well, he is still sick and I am getting the horrible wife of 2013 award in the mail. We spent last Thursday night in the ER because he was having abdominal pain and we went to see a GI doc yesterday afternoon. I won’t go into detail because it is not my story to share, but please keep him in your thoughts and prayers. As far as we know it’s not anything crazy serious… but he is having an unpleasant procedure on Valentine’s day.

2. Me

In early January, my doc discovered that I had a thyroid problem. I have been told by everyone it’s not big deal, but it is a big deal to me. I don’t know why, but I always view health problems as a sign of weakness and I’ve always been pretty invincible in that department. I never get sick and I’ve had a problem free life in regards to my health with only a few minor bumps here and there. I won’t even take Tylenol if I have a headache! So, when I find out I have some “condition” I need to treat forever, it’s kind of unsettling to me.  I just want to be the same Shelli with no health probs! Not some 27 year old woman with a pill list.

I have been waiting for my appointment today with an Endocrinologist since my blood work came back in early January because I had so many questions. The doc was nice, confirmed everything I already knew and I CRIED. I’m sure it was a cocktail of things… worry about my husband, myself… being overwhelmed with my life in general at the moment, but I have cried all afternoon. I’m sure these emotions stem from my thyroid too, because apparently your thyroid affects EVERYTHING. Oh, and the doctors scale was like 4 pounds heavier than what mine said this morning. Bastards.

Long story short, she gave me 8 weeks of synthoid, told me I have Hashimoto’s thyroiditis and I went on my way, not to come back for 7 more weeks.

3. Why it’s Important to stretch when you are getting old

Last night during the Bachelor, I decided to jump up and do some squats and lunges. This morning when I stood up from bed, my lower back was killing me. I can just hear my husband (baseball coach) voice saying “ make sure your knees don’t pass your toes when you squat” and “did you stretch?” Clearly, I did neither of those things because my back f*cking hurts when I try to stand up straight.

So along with my husbands’ and my own declining health (yes- I am overly dramatic) I am having back trouble today. When did this happen? Why am I not still 22 and a spring chicken? I don’t want to get old or take synthoid. We are not even 30!

Sorry to be such a downer. Thanks for letting me share. I know our problems could be worse and we are very fortunate these small feats are all we are facing. Now I’m going to clean up my mascara and go pick up the BEST part of my day, my healthy, beautiful Kendall Grace!

11 comments:

  1. Hugs coming your way girl! I can only imagine having to deal with your diagnosis on top of everything else. And can I say, are we the same person sometimes? I was the same way before, I hated taking any kind of medicine and now I feel like I need a pill minder just to remember everything! Just remember we are here for you whenever you need us! :)- Mary Beth

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  2. Dang girl, don't let Coach see you with a kink in your back! You will get the "I told you so" speech.

    Remember- When you weigh yourself, instantly subtract 5 lbs from the number that registers on the scale. I don't think your brains and boobs should have to count against you. Apparently your scale got the memo and the Doc’s scale didn’t.

    All joking aside, I'll be thinking of you and the family and will send up a prayer.

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  3. F illness F your back F the scale F pills. Ill F them ALL UP for you! haha hope this at least made you smile. Its ok to be pissed. It mans you arent a robot :-)

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  4. Oh you poor little dear. I feel for you! I agree, we're too young to have to pop a pill daily, wake up w/ a sore back, not be able to spring back from an illness as quicky, take our husbands to a hospital to have a procedure done!!! Some aspects of getting older really, really suck! Vent away, my dear, you are definitely entitled! And it is ok to be mad about this! Feel what you feel and don't apologize for any of it! That is one thing I have learned in the past week that will help me the rest of my life. I hope it helps you, too!

    Love to you my friend! And good thoughts and prayers coming your husband's way! Squeeze little Kendall extra hard tonight, I bet she'll help cheer you up! It's amazing what those little ones can do to improve your mood and take your mind off things, if only for a little while. (((Hugs)))

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  5. Poor Ryan family! Praying for you and your hubs. Hugs to you, keep your head up!!

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  6. I'll say a prayer for y'all! I had postpartum thyroiditis with my second child. My whole body was screwed up. Everything from heart palpitations to tummy issues. I'm sorry girl! I know soooooo many people that take synthroid. It will take prob take some time to get the dose that is just right for you but eventually it will help you feel better. (((HUGS))) Oh and I got my stuff! Thanks, girlfriend!

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  7. Thoughts and prayers coming your way!
    My dad had thyroid issues about a year and a half ago and it is scary. I can't imagine what it is like only being 27!
    Thinking of you always!
    Xoxo

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  8. I can totally understand your frustrations! I have been seeing a hormone specialist and she diagnosed my thyroid problem. Many people go years without knowing they have a problem. I take a natural thyroid medicine (versus the synthetic kind) and now that my thyroid issues are being dealt with my weight just fell off. When the thyroid is off, your whole body can be off. So hopefully it will help you lose the weight you want. I didn't change my eating habits either. Hang in there!

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  9. Well that's all a F*ing bummer! Sorry I kinda laughed at stretching conversation between you and Chris. Gettin old sucks!

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  10. Hope everything improves soon! Hashimoto's is kind of a serious diagnosis to just throw out there. Nice of them to just throw the Rx and tell you to hang in there for 7 weeks. I'm a little over dramatic when it comes to health as well. Seems like when it rains it pours sometimes. Stretching will help with the stress and the back pain ;) Hang in there girl! Praying for ya!

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  11. Boo health problems! Sorry to hear you're going through this. Praying for you, girl!

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