I try to do a lot all the time. I have a lot of help, but I take on a lot. Hence, my stressed jaw situation. So after your husband is out of the country for two weeks and you are around your kids all the time, you just need an hour to yourself.
I hope this doesn’t sound like I’m complaining, because I truly am grateful for this season of life. It’s summer. My husband is at home. I am at home. We are with our kids every day. I’m just wired to be anxious and worried about the future. The future as in if I will have a classroom in August.
Saturday I told Chris I needed to be alone. I snuck out of the house and floated in my parents pool for a little while and then chatted with my mom and siblings. I just needed to reboot.
Then I got pissed because Chris took the kids to his parents without telling me. Much later I found the cute note he left where he told me to “Enjoy!” Insert humility.
Do you ever wish you could convince yourself to think a certain way?
Like, I wish I could just make myself relax and embrace where I am at right now. I don’t want to remember Summer 2014 being stressful. I want to remember teaching Kendall to write and taking naps with Adley in my bed and Chris building us fires to make s’mores.